I remind myself, the torture of uncertainty that I'm going through right now is better than the alternative. Because the alternative is to numb, pretend like its not a big deal, and detach emotionally. And I will never be able to find joy if I'm emotionally detached.
So here's to taking a chance, a risk, and seeing what in the world is going to happen. Even if its pain, I've gotta try.
To quote myself, "I must be willing to guess if I ever want to know."
Even though I'm terrified.