Friday, September 5, 2014

Faith and Abuse

"Satan uses your abuse to undermine your self-confidence, destroy trust in authority, create fear, and generate feelings of despair. Abuse can damage your ability to form healthy human relationships.
You must have faith that all of these negative consequences can be resolved
otherwise they will keep you from full recovery. While these outcomes have powerful influence in your life,
they do not define the real you."

This is from a talk by Richard G Scott. Looks like this is my next big faith challenge. A few years ago, I gathered my strength to do something that seemed hard and scary, and I started doing family history. And it has turned out so much better than I imagined. 

Now it's time for me to exercise faith in Jesus Christ that I can be healed from the abuse in my past. I need it for my internship. And I need it so I can truly love and support the people I care about, without being sabotaged by these outcomes of abuse.

I believe the real me knows how to love. This unhealed abused me has a much harder time. 

I want to get to know the real me better. 

Thursday, September 4, 2014

Monday, September 1, 2014

Firsts on September 1st

Today had several "first" experiences:

The first day in a long time that I've been in my pajamas until 4:00 pm.  Maybe I shouldn't admit that...
The first time I've gone running since I moved to Chicago!
The first time I've seen hundreds of dragonflies all around me.
The first time I've seen the stars since coming to Chicago.
The first time I stood on a Lake Michigan beach.