Imperfect, but quite awesome!

Do you ever days where you just feel really good and happy about who you are? This doesn't happen to me often. But today I feel loved, valuable, attractive, kind, sharp, and even somewhat fun! And no one told me I was - I just feel it.

I hope I can have days like this more often!

Maybe someone's been praying for me pretty hard. Or maybe it's time for my own prayers to be answered. Either way I'm grateful. =)

Like a little seed...

Nothing too big happened today. A portion of my energy was used up keeping myself from hyperventilating because next Wednesday I have what feels like a million really big projects due, and some of them I haven't started. Let it be known that I never plan to take 18 credits in one semester again.

I have a place to live this summer, but no job yet. Trying not to get too stressed out about that. I'm really excited to have a private room though, once I move. It's gonna be awesome. It sounds so peaceful, does it not?

I talk a lot during my piano lessons. I hope I don't drive my professor crazy. But she asks how I'm doing, and means it! I can't pass up an opportunity like that! =)

My confidence is growing. It's grown a little bit in the last day or two. I can feel it. It's pretty exciting. Just like the blessing from bishop said it would be, this is a really exciting time of life for me! I am genuinely more excited about life than I've been in years. I'm coming to myself. And I know that it will help me be a more effective tool in God's hands, to bless His children. =)

Increased Confidence Again!

My miracle for today was how calmly and appropriately I reacted when the girl in front of me in choir fainted during our Christmas concert. She started swaying, and started stepping backwards, and falling backwards. I caught her, and helped her down to the floor, and waited for her to wake up. (Her eyes were open, but I could tell she wasn't there...)  She came to, realized she had passed out, stood back up, and got back into formation, insisting she could finish. Unfortunately she passed out again a few minutes later, but the girls standing right next to her helped her that time. When she woke up from that, she left, rather than risking passing out on stage again.

I consider this as a miracle, because I imagine that if this had happened a few months or years ago, I wouldn't have reacted calmly or been helpful. I passed out for the first time about a month ago, so I know how it feels now and all that, so it didn't surprise me too much. Interestingly, in Psychology we've been talking about social psychology, including the bystander effect, and I've been wondering if I would be helpful and contributing if something bad happened to someone in a large group. Tonight I was in a situation where I was able to see myself help, even while in a large group, without thinking about it. I just did what needed to be done, to the best of my knowledge. I'm not saying that I know I would do that in every social situation imaginable (though I hope I would!) but at least I can see that today I didn't fall prey to that way of thinking. And that's a great feeling! =)

Increased Confidence

My miracle of the day is that when I sang in front of all the voice students today during Voice Recital hour, I didn't feel nervous. No shaking legs, no frantic feelings. I didn't sing amazingly, compared to everyone else, but I sang pretty good for me. And I was happy to listen to myself singing.  The fact that I wasn't nervous makes me really happy. One of my main desires is to grow more confident. To not be afraid of others opinions, or the opinions that I imagine they have. I want to be a humble, willing-to-take-correction, yet confident, happy person. And today was encouraging in that respect, seeing that I'm making progress, and was more confident today than I have been in the past. =)

My favorite thing about the Gospel and about life, is that people can change. Really change. For the better. That really is one of the best miracles of all.