Monday, April 28, 2014


This might be hyperbolic, but I may have more responsibilities than I've ever had before. But maybe it just feels that way because I had so few responsibilities in December, January, and February. 

A little over a week ago I was called as a Relief Society president for my singles ward in Payson. I think it's going to be more difficult than it was in Logan, because of the different demographics. But I have a better perspective than last time, because I have some experience, and a more healed spirit. One of my goals is to serve diligently without succumbing to the discouraging thoughts put there by the adversary. 

I'm helping put on a Family History Fair in my stake, which will take place in June. I will also keep teaching Institute in my stake, teaching Family History. 

I'm going to become a tutor in about a month, working in Salt Lake.

I'm applying for another internship in Chicago. It might be a better fit for me. I'm taking lessons still, to help me prepare. 

I'm gonna run a half-marathon with my mom this summer. And I'm going to lose 18 pounds. 

And I'm still working at my current job for a while, with a different position within the IT department. And I get to use a MacBook Pro and an iPad Air. With great responsibilities come great electronics. 

I definitely didn't know my life would be this way when I moved home!

Thursday, April 17, 2014


Yesterday I played a lot. Jumped on the trampoline and taught my brothers how to do a flip (it'll take them a lot of practice), ate FRENCH TOAST (emphasized because I love it and rarely get it), ran/sprinted along with my brothers as they rode bikes (I need my own bike), watched a few good short videos, and painted. And texted Sarah. And talked to my childhood friend Alice. Life is good. Life really does feel better when you mix in a good portion of fun along with the work. As I sat on the trampoline and watched my brothers flying all over the place, I just felt really content and peaceful. It wasn't flashy fun, but it was simple fun, and I was lighthearted and content. =)

Monday, April 14, 2014

Because of Him

Yesterday was awesome. It was a pretty full day. The awesome part is that I felt like I was the best version of myself I've been. I felt sincere and kind. I've been kind before, but not always sincerely. My authenticity and sincerity improvements make for a richer experience in life. =)

I can sense a more real conversion than I've had before, and I love it. There's a lot more love and happiness available in life than I thought there was. And it's because of Christ.

The day really was awesome. The Spirit in our testimony meeting was actually really strong! I had a temple recommend interview, and felt deep peace and emotions. I got to go visiting teaching, as well as to a meeting where I also felt the Spirit as we planned for an awesome family history event. I got several opportunities to serve, and took them, even though I didn't have to. I'm glad I did. 

My friend Bronson asked his Facebook friends how Jesus Christ has made a difference in our lives. I responded that because of Him, I can be brave and act in courage, knowing that all my mistakes that I make as I'm trying to learn by experience can be forgiven, healed, and made into something beautiful. So there's no need to be afraid. Because of Him I can leave behind perfectionism and experience true growth, joy, and gratitude instead. He's my safety, and provides me with all the hope I need. 

I am so eternally grateful to know I have a Savior who loves me infinitely. Believing that changes everything. I know He lives and I know He loves me. And I know He is the Son of God. 

Monday, April 7, 2014

I'm Sorry Because...

We actually had a really good Family Home Evening tonight! After a few Mormon Messages videos, we had a lesson on apologizing. And it was really good! It came from something my dad read on Facebook. We talked about the four steps of apologizing, then practiced it, using real but not-too-serious examples. It went amazingly well. If we can keep it up, I think we'll definitely improve our relationships. Especially considering that forgiveness and humility are two of the mist important parts of a relationship. 

On another note, I want to buy that bike I tried a few weeks ago. I need a solid way to get out the stress I've been feeling a lot of lately. I feel like I have responsibilities and expectations pressing on me from every direction. I think I need to slow down... But purposefully. I just don't always know what can be cut out. I'll figure out something. Anyhow, I feel a 25 minute bike ride could do me a lot of good. Because it's truly fun. =)

Thursday, April 3, 2014

Meet the Candidates

I went to my first Meet the Candidates meeting tonight, as a county delegate. Luckily for me and my fellow county members, most of the candidates seemed like really decent kind people. I've got a good county here. =)

Work was a little crazy. Busy. But it's amazing how much happier I am when working on a project than I am doing busy work. I haven't been taking lunch breaks, because I'm pretty engaged in what I'm doing.  Even if it's stressful, it's still engaging. I just eat while I work. 

I'm excited for my mission reunion and General Conference this weekend! I need it.

Wednesday, April 2, 2014


I'm still trying to shake the sadness and worry that I've had since yesterday. I was stressed about preparing my Institute lesson, but I got it prepared and went to my classroom... And no students came. It was discouraging. But on the bright side, I got to attend a different class and reflect on the doctrine of repentance (the topic being addressed by Dustin and Derek).

I'm hoping for a return of confidence soon. Maybe I'm also feeling a little deficient when it comes to my new job I started this week, my duties as a county delegate, not having an internship secured yet, and wondering if I can really do all The Lord asks of me. 

Sounds like I need more genuine faith. I will choose to embrace optimism, hope, and humility. Even though I don't feel like it right now...