I saw an old friend tonight that I hadn't seen in quite a while, and seeing him reminded me of one of the most amazing times in my life. It was during a time I was going through a lot of stress, related to the guy I was dating. The friend that I saw tonight was friends with me back then, and he could tell I was stressed. He took me on a bike ride, probably around 8:30 in the evening, during March, in Rexburg. In other words, it was completely dark, and rather cold, but that didn't matter. The bike ride was exactly what I needed. I experienced a true escape for the next hour or hour and a half. No one, except the friend I was biking with, knew where I was. There was basically no one else outside either (too cold!). I wasn't tied down to anything. I felt at home on that bike. We were riding wherever we wanted to, in town, and even it into the countryside for a while. I really felt like I wasn't tied down to anything. I could go as fast as I wanted, wherever I wanted. I didn't have to worry about getting lost, because I knew my friend knew the way back. I also knew that he truly considered me a friend. He didn't take me on this bike ride so he would have a better chance of dating me. He was truly a friend. We talked about simple happy things. We sang. We tried to figure out some constellations. No pressure. No deadlines. No expectations. No limits. No fear. No stress.
I've tried to explain why that night was great. I've tried to recreate it at times. But I've never had everything line up so perfectly since then, to produce such a free feeling. I'm so accustomed to living with stress. I hope I can find that same feeling again. It was a truly miraculous feeling.
And I'm so grateful I had such a good friend, to help me when I needed it. I'll never forget that kindness, and how much it meant to me. =)
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