Another post sharing my scripture reading thoughts. Here is a section of scripture that scares me to death:
Thus saith the Lord God unto the shepherds; Woe be to the shepherds of Israel that do feed themselves! should not the shepherds feed the flocks?
3 Ye eat the fat, and ye clothe you with the wool, ye kill them that are fed: but ye feed not the flock.
4 The diseased have ye not strengthened, neither have ye healed that which was sick, neither have ye bound up that which was broken, neither have ye brought again that which was driven away, neither have ye sought that which was lost; but with force and with cruelty have ye ruled them.
5 And they were scattered, because there is no shepherd: and they became meat to all the beasts of the field, when they were scattered.
6 My sheep wandered through all the mountains, and upon every high hill: yea, my flock was scattered upon all the face of the earth, and none did search or seek after them.
(Old Testament | Ezekiel 34:2–6)
Having been given a portion of stewardship and responsibility for the sisters in my ward, this section terrifies me a little. It's so easy to slip into feeding off of others, instead of helping them. Especially while going to school, and being told to focus more time on myself and my grades and my money and my needs. This section really makes me ask myself, am I strengthening my sisters? Helping them find healing? Binding up that which is broken? Bringing back again those that were driven away? Seeking those which are lost?
I'm not gonna put my answers up here, but let's just say I've been humbled. I haven't been completely failing, but I could do much much better.